Still very traumatized by last night's Buffy. After it was over, I had to call my parents and make sure they were still alive and tell them that I love them. All those shots of Joyce's body at the beginning of each segment...I had to consciously work to think happy thoughts while trying to fall asleep last night. And I then wound up having a very bizarre dream that I was on some strange version of Survivor. Weird. I'm just happy that the Angel was happy and uplifting and that look that Angel and Wesley exchanged right after they killed the demon in Wesley's apartment...awww. If Angel had been half as depressing as Buffy, I think I would have had to stay home from work today and mope. Or something.
I am never, ever going to watch that episode again. My heart goes out to all of you who have lost a parent.
Current song in my head:
"Homeward Bound" by Simon & Garfunkel
Random piece of mirth: I was typing out an address that I need to send a complimentary copy of a book to, and the address is in Needham Heights, Massachusetts. This made me think of the paper Jody and I wrote sophomore year where we quoted from a trashy romance novel written by someone with the last name of Needham...which I think is just a clever way of saying "Need-him." Because nobody would ever write a trashy romance novel under their real name. Okay, maybe you had to be there, but I was sure amused.
That being said, I should get back to work, though I am overly full of pancakes, eggs, and sausage right now to think of doing much besides curl up into a little ball and moan.
Update: Steve informed me that "Right Here, Right Now" was performed by Jesus Jones.
Wow. That was a bit strong, wasn't it? That's what I get for giving into my emotions.
Anyway, how could I be anything but excited right now? Two reasons: a) it's Shrove Tuesday, and we're going out to brunch and getting pancakes; and b) new Buffy and Angel tonight! The fate of Joyce and the Scooby Gang will be revealed...I hope.
Current song in my head:
"Right Here, Right Now" by whatever 80's group sang it
You should check out www.zapatopi.net. It's all conspiracy theories, and if you go to the one about how Belgium doesn't exist, there's a link to the page saying Delaware doesn't exist. I'm not going to buy it, though. I've been to Delaware. My aunt and uncle live there, as well as three of their children. But whatever.
Earlier on tv I saw a commercial for a hip-hop compilation that was chock full of songs from the late 80's and early 90's. Back when I kind of listened to rap. I was quite amused. It had "2 Legit 2 Quit" on it. Hee hee.
Current song in my head:
"It Takes Two" by whoever sang it
Evil is Entemann's coffee cake in the kitchen. More evil is compounding this with the savoury aroma of some sort of soup wafting through the office.
Current song in my head (it changes often):
"I Don't Want to Miss a Thing" by Aerosmith
Friends are a good thing. I keep thinking I should make non-college friends, and I should, but college friends are great too. And it's nice having a bunch close by. And thinking about it, Kathy doesn't really have any non-college friends. And really, her friends are actually Robert's friends. So it all works out. I would like to get involved with theater or a book club or something...but I like my friends. And for all that I complain about a lack of social life, I do like not doing anything on weekends sometimes. Because I like me.
Sorry for the large cheese factor in that.
Okay, back to work. Or, actually, off to mightybigtv to read on the forums what everyone thought of last night's The West Wing. I liked it, though it wasn't as great as some others. But the scene at the end with Ellie and Jed got me...I'm a sucker for father-daughter bonding moments.
Current song in my head:
"Bent" by Matchbox Twenty (who I'm seeing on March 11!)
I went and visited Kathy this weekend. It was really neat seeing her, and seeing her and Robert. They have minor little spats, but you can tell that they do love each other. I'm looking forward to the wedding, for the social aspects, at least. At the same time, it makes me really sad. I guess it's just another sign of my fading childhood. I mean, really, nothing's going to change. But in a way, everything will.
And I really need to not be jealous of Jen, Robert's sister. I guess it's the whole fact that she's singing in the wedding. I feel like I should be the more important sibling because I'm the maid of honor. It didn't help to have Kathy and Robert gush about how incredibly talented she is, too. And how Robert's family is all around there and they see his family all the time. I don't know. The whole thing just makes me really sad. I can't watch Father of the Bride without crying a lot. It's like Christmas vacation of my freshman year of college, when I realized it would be Kathy's last Christmas break and I bawled. I guess family is just really important to me.
Which is why I'm getting to this point where even though I have a job I love, I feel like my life is not at all how I want it to be. Probably because I'm alone...I'm so jealous of Kathy. She has friends. A fiance. I see no prospects for either on my part (Jen has a boyfriend--even if nobody likes him). In ten years I'd like to be married...possibly even have a child. I can't even get one guy to ask me out.
Sorry this is so long and rambly and depressing...I always get into sad moods after long weekends. Or any weekends. Sunday nights just suck, really. But anyway.
Weird things happen in this small, crazy world of ours. So I was on my way to work, about two blocks from my office, and I was stopped at a red light--the first car in line. Some people crossed in front of me. And one was Anna Chongpiantchi (???). It was very bizarre to see this girl I went to college with walking along on her way to work. I knew she worked near me, but it was still strange.
And might I add, since I am watching Buffy at the moment, that Spike is the coolest vampire ever. Also the cutest.
Okay, Jody will die when she reads this, but wrestling is kind of amusing. Ever since he hosted Saturday Night Live, The Rock amuses me excessively. I think it's his look of intense concentration. Or whatever that really intense look is. Plus, he said "monkey ass." hee hee
Expanding our horizons is a good thing. That's why I like working where I do. Not only is my job cool and I get to learn things, but the people I work with like to go out to lunch. Today: Thai food. I didn't know whether I would like it (having discovered that I'm not big into Indian food), but it rocked! I highly recommend everyone try Thai food. If in the metro D.C. area, go to Tara Thai. Or Thai Tara. I don't remember. Particularly the Ginger Perfect.
You know, I always thought people were generally not easy to figure out. Everyone with their layers and ulterior motives, etc., etc. Reality television just tries to disprove me, really. Or maybe everyone on them is just really good at acting. Or the editors are just really good at cutting it to make the people seem easy to understand. Except The Mole, which is an excellent show. Yup, television that makes you think. The horror.
I just wish I could tell what everyone's actual motives were in real life. Or maybe not. That might just be too disturbing.
And let me close by saying that while Richard Simmons is a big dork, it is kind of nice having him root you on while you work out.
Current song in my head:
"Doe a Deer" from "The Sound of Music"
[And I know all the combinations of the elements. Thank you stage crew!]