I’m having another week of feeling perpetually tired. I don’t know why. I got sleep this weekend. I’m not going to sleep excessively late, and Colin isn’t keeping me up (though he has decided that 2:30 a.m. is a good time for playing, to which I respond by rolling over). So I don’t know.
And it’s combined with this feeling that I’m incompetent. I’m supposed to be getting this promotion/new job, but right now I don’t feel at all qualified. I have a complete lack of self-esteem right now, particularly with regards to my job. I feel like I just don’t know what I’m doing. Which isn’t true…but it’s a learning process, and I feel like I’m behind the curve. So I’m mentally panicking about that.
Plus the tutoring. Right now I’m working with two girls. I’ve only had one session with one of them, but I’m strangely paranoid about her. I guess because her father is all gung-ho and wants reports and stuff, and because she’s going into ninth grade and I’m not sure of what I’m supposed to be doing with her. The other girl I get along great with and have no problems in the sessions, but I don’t know that I’m making any progress with her. It’s just frustrating.
I don’t know. Why do I keep having these weeks where staying in bed all day sounds like a good option?
Current song in my head:
“Hey, a Movie!” from The Great Muppet Caper