Barb’s Burblings

I’m trying not to freak out about my new job. Tomorrow is my first day. I am completely losing it, though. I should go to bed, but I am wide awake. And I know I won’t sleep well tonight. It was a good thing that finishing out the multitude of forms required me to call some friends and my dad–I needed that positive reinforcement. But still…panic. I don’t know why I have such a fear of the unknown, but there it is.
At least I had a good weekend. I spent it at my sister’s, and my mom was there. A very quiet weekend, and a reassuring one. I didn’t want to leave, though–something about just hanging around, watching the Olympics, and reading for an indefinite period of time sounds very nice. And the knowledge that I’d have to come home and start a new job didn’t help, either.
Anyway, hopefully tomorrow I’ll be gushing about it. At the very least I won’t have as much fear–it won’t be totally unknown. And hey, I wasn’t particularly interested in or knowledgeable about the area of my last job, either. Realizing that has helped settle me down a bit.