Barb's Burblings

See Barb. See Barb panic.

I'm trying not to freak out about my new job. Tomorrow is my first day. I am completely losing it, though. I should go to bed, but I am wide awake. And I know I won't sleep well tonight. It was a good thing that finishing out the multitude of forms required me to call some friends and my dad--I needed that positive reinforcement. But still...panic. I don't know why I have such a fear of the unknown, but there it is.

At least I had a good weekend. I spent it at my sister's, and my mom was there. A very quiet weekend, and a reassuring one. I didn't want to leave, though--something about just hanging around, watching the Olympics, and reading for an indefinite period of time sounds very nice. And the knowledge that I'd have to come home and start a new job didn't help, either.

Anyway, hopefully tomorrow I'll be gushing about it. At the very least I won't have as much fear--it won't be totally unknown. And hey, I wasn't particularly interested in or knowledgeable about the area of my last job, either. Realizing that has helped settle me down a bit.