Part of my job involves putting out a publication every month. It's not particularly hard to produce, and most months it's gone pretty smoothly. This month is not one of those months. There have been tons of problems and it's been completely obnoxious, particularly since I also had a bunch of other things I needed to get done before this conference I'm going to next week. So it's been a pain, but the people I work with on it have been super, and I wrote one of them an email effusively thanking her for all of her help. She wrote a very nice reply, including an observation that I'm easygoing.
It sticks in my mind because my first boss in the real world once described me as unflappable. I think this was right after she told me she was quitting.
The thing is, when she told me she was quitting, it was all I could do to stop myself from crying. I think I'm less "unflappable," more "represses feelings (or at least doesn't let them out until I'm alone)." Lately I feel like I'm either in crazy panicked mode or am totally lethargic. I guess I just spend all my energy freaking out, wearing me out for the rest of the time.
Probably the stress lately hasn't helped, either. I can't wait to get on the cruise and get a massage. And lay on the beach. And not do anything. Sounds like heaven.
Current song in my head:
"All at Once" by Whitney Houston